The wait for a social security disability hearing wears on you. You already feel terrible. The pressure of not having an income is crushing. Throughout the country there are long lines to have hearings before a social security judge. This bad experience is not limited to Central Illinois. See the following article about Ohio http://www.columbusdispatch.com/dispatch/contentbe/EPIC_shim.php?story=247994 . Congress is holding hearings regarding the disability horror show. Let your congressperson and United States Senator about your own experiences.
Serious illness and disability is definitely a faith testing experience. Cry out to the Lord and He will hear you.
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